These pictures above explain the constant types of pain those with RSD endure. The stabbing in different parts of your body, if yours is widespread like mine.....or just in one affected area. The burning literally feels like someone has set you on fire and you cannot put it out. It takes a lot of will power to push it away but some days I am just completely out of gas.
It is so easy to smile on the outside and ruminate in a rut on the inside.
For many people, it tears their relationships apart and they end in divorce. Makes me so said and angry at the person who doesn't have the strength or enough love to stay when the going gets tough.
I was never one to take any medicine in my life.....even went to great lengths to avoid aspirin, etc.
Now am on medicine to help me sleep.....the RSD affects the sleep center of the brain....and causes chronic insomnia. It also affects the emotional center so when depression starts from the chronic pain, it just builds.
Drugs help me sleep and 'lift' my mood.....I used to go to work and sing and hum my way through the day so am trying to get back into that effort.
So in order to MOVE ON and quit spinning in the mud I am making notes here to try to be more positive and with LIFE in general. To do that I have set up some goals for long term as well as just every day.
Once out there in print.......it is easier to make myself more accountable.
1. start classes towards an art degree( i have been in some aspect of nursing since age 15 and after 32 years as a real nurse am ready to feed my creative side) I have never taken art in school or otherwise just a few classes here and there.
2. make art every day whether it is an hour on a sketch or a quick sketch or some project
3. sew something every day have tons of ideas and patterns as well as granchildren to sew for!!!
4. visit my elderly neighbor at least two evenings a week she calls me her best friend and is 87
Angie has known me since I have been about 12. She moved across the street from us 7 years ago.
5.when spring shows up and it will soon we are safe from all the snow the rest of the US is enduring
make outdoor projects.......cement, glass, gardening etc.
Okay my art project for today is painting the pantry door in chalkboard paint.
I am happy to be back and will be visiting your blogs soon.
Thank you John, Ryan and Lehua, Sarah and Ryan, Bethany and Bryce, Brianna and Jason;
Nakiah, Tovijoi, Sydne, Lauryn, Rylee Joy, Nai'a and Elijah.......you are my life and make it so SWEET!!!!